Sunday, January 31, 2010

Well that was an interesting night. It started off normal enough but, as you can see from the previous statement, ended up rather different. I spent the day on a hike/walk which was great because I don't get outside as much as I would like. A lovely day was followed by a dinner of homemade pad se ew and it was delicious!! I never would have guess it was so easy! yum! ^^ There was way too much sugar for dessert and whiskey in the hot cocoa but I survived haha. What made the night so "unique" was when I drove my friend home at 1:40am and we pulled up outside their house and proceeded to talk for a bit. Nothing unusual in this as we do it a lot. After about 10 minutes I just happened to look in my rear-view mirror and see two boys walking down the street with a bike. At first I just thought they were stupid teenagers wandering about until they ditched the bike and started looking into all the cars parked on the street with a flashlight. They walked by the my car and looked very unhappy to see us there walked by and flipped us off all while giving us a direct look at his face (didn't matter in the end but still a stupid move). I was already calling the police at this time who transferred to about 4 different lines before giving me to the right dispatcher who took my information.

At this point the boys had walked over to the gas station and I figured they were long gone and so it was a bit silly to be finishing my report but I did. We stayed in the car out of nervousness (I got jumpy because I have never actually had to call the cops) until we saw a police officer drive by in a big SUV with a search light on the side. He stopped at the bike and moved it out of the street and we got out of the car (friends idea not mine) and told him we made the report. He informed us that another police officer had the boys over at the gas station. I was very happy they caught they and really surprised they were still there...okay not that surprised if you are going around looking for cars to break into you are not that smart to begin with. All in all my interesting night makes for a rather uninteresting post but that's ok. It is late and I wanted to ramble =P

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Creativity Everyday

As I was ignoring my homework and randomly hunting through peoples blogs (which led me to another and then another and possibly another) I came across a delightful little challenge. The Creative Every Day Challenge is a fun and un-imposing sounding challenge to, well, be creative everyday in anyway at all. I doubt I will have time to do something worth talking about everyday but I hope that this will inspire me to be a bit more....creative (I was hoping for a different word haha). I am taking a conceptual art class here at school but I don't think I will count that towards this personal challenge; even though it is very nice to take 1-2 hours just to draw and completely screw around on Tuesdays and Thursdays. Lets see what happens! =)

Note: The January challenge idea (which is a completely optional to use) is - Body

Friday, January 22, 2010

Mmm Eye Candy =D

"I gotta feeling that tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good, good night

A feeling that tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good, good night

A feeling, woohoo, that tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good, good night"

-Black Eyed Peas "I Gotta Feeling"

Tonight is chill and girly! I needed tonight and I love it! We watched "What a Girl Wants" and I am curling my already curly hair lol. I also got to ogle a very fine man specimen and dinner (with a very cute butt ^^ teehee) so it made dinner very nice. I am not usually this girly and it is fun =)

Thursday, January 21, 2010


YES! Things worked out today!! Which is fanfreakintastic (fan-freakin-tastic hahaha)!! Because I have a hard time expressing my emotions when I am not in the midst of them I sat down and wrote a "letter" thing to my best friend about what has been happening and what has been bugging me that may impede our ability to live together. I was really worried that she would a) freak out on me or b) just get very pissed off and walk away. But neither happened! She took it really well and was happy I told her so we had a good talk about it =) We also invited one of our best friends and my roommate from last year to live with us next year and she was ecstatic! Things are really looking good for the future and that takes a lot of stress off my shoulders!

I also got an amazing shirt =) It makes me smile!
It says "Love does not discriminate...neither should we"

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Random Writings of Latest Happenings

Today was an odd combination of stress and relief. I have a math test on Friday and I am struggling more and more with the material and it is only the 3rd week of the quarter. I also have a microeconomics midterm coming up soon and I really don't get that. I feel that I am just really being scatterbrained and forgetting a lot of important things. Step one in fixing this stress is definitely going to be to clean my room and remove some of the clutter that has accumulated since Sunday. Going to the tutoring center was certainly a good idea today. I now actually understand some of my math homework and I hope that when I review/study tomorrow things will really click and I will pass the test.

Currently I am being plagued by a boy who glomps onto and falls in love with any girl that is remotely nice to him. I was that girl unfortunately. I told him that I wouldn't date him and yet he seems to persist which is very annoying. On happy note though this weekend was marvelous! I went down to Seattle and Pike Place Market for a bit where I bought some tea that I am going to give my dad for his birthday. He wanted to try whatever type(s) of tea I enjoy. I bought 1-2 ounces each of Ginger Lemon, Peach Apricot Honeybush, and a 2nd Flush Darjeeling. They all smell amazing and I tried the Peach Apricot Honeybush and it is really good! What was so lovely about the trip is that I got to hang out with one of my favorite people in the world! Being with him and talking really helped me to face some of my worries and realize how irrational I was being. I know we might not have it all figured out and that's fine. But things are on the right track and from where I am standing right now everything will be ok =)

One final note. Last Friday a few of my friends and myself went to an awesome place called Creativitea for my birthday where you can paint pottery, fuse glass, and drink tea. All of the prices are very reasonable and we had a great time! It was a happy birthday expect for the 4/7 girls who left early because they can't got a day without seeing their boyfriends. Not even for their best friends birthday. ANYWAY I don't care about that because I got an awesome mug out of the deal and a wonderful dinner and walk with two amazing girls =)

Thursday, January 7, 2010

This will be angsty

I am feeling like I can't take this anymore. It is only the 1st week of winter quarter and I am already stressed out of my mind. It wouldn't be so bad if I could drop the class I hate and not have to worry about it but I have to fill that spot with something and I don't feel like I should be wasting anymore time/credits. I know college is about finding yourself but I wish it didn't come at such a high price. And mostly I am feeling super alone here. All of my "friends" are very busy with school and boyfriends and they just seem to not care. I am sure they do to some degree but if they did my supposed best friend would give me more of 1.5 hours of her time which she spent doing homework so she could go see her boyfriend. Every time I walk back into my dorm the roommate is on the phone to her boyfriend for hours.

Speaking of boyfriends, I lost mine (no big surprise why I feel such a surge of loneliness). I decided not to call or text him (yea we want to be friends, explain why later). I wanted to see what would happen and if he didn't call or text I would have my answers. He hasn't yet and I don't have any hopes that he will. 2 years and 7 months gone in three days. He has moved on and it isn't my job to keep us connected. He made so many promises. How he loved me and always would and that he would wait for me to finish college before we decided to move on from there. I believed him. I want to believe him still but I don't know if I can. Maybe he is upset and this hurts him too but he never shows his emotions so to the best of my knowledge he is doing just fine now. Even when I told him we were ending (yes. it was my fault). He just said he was "sad". I don't want to bash him but I can't imagine 2.7 years just going away and being fine in three days unless a lot of it never mattered.

So here I sit still glancing at my phone waiting for a sign that I still matter to him. *sighs* I sound like a pathetic high school girl but that is how it is. I am lost, stressed, hurt, confused, and lonely and I have no one to talk to and no one to hug.

" Forever and ever the scars will remain. I am falling apart. Leave me here forever in the dark." - Give me a Sign by Breaking Benjamin