Two and a half days of my love, friends, amazing performances, and new(ish) video games, I can’t think of a better way I could have spent my weekend. I swear this weekend disappeared in seconds though, I blinked and it was Sunday. Despite the intense time warp I really enjoyed the weekend. Friday was spent with Alex and Eli and Bryan. We did dinner and then played games and watched most of Sherlock Holmes before we all got too tired. I love hanging out with them! It makes me so happy that Alex and Eli really like Bryan and vice versa.

Saturday Bryan and I went out to lunch and then to the farmers market where I found some great little Christmas gifts for people. I really enjoy buying local and supporting small businesses. My goal is to do the majority of my shopping at local businesses (I am going to go to Pikes Place Market when I get home). I don’t think Bryan realizes how many points he got for going to Fall into Dance with me. He volunteered to go as well. I didn’t have to ask at all. He said that he had never been to a dance show and that he was curious. It wasn’t his cup of tea (I knew it wouldn’t be) but he still enjoyed himself. I am just glad he was willing to try something new and didn’t make a fuss about going with me. I typically contain my emotions around my friends because I am sure they don’t want to hear me blathering on and on about Bryan so I am going to spill my guts here. He makes me ridiculously happy. There is something about his personality that clicks so well with mine and everything flows so well when we are together. He is an absolutely amazing person and I feel so lucky that I get to have him in my life. I know we may not be together forever and I am not banking on that. I am simply happy to be with him right now and enjoying the possibility. (But if it does work that way because I know we both want it too than I certainly won’t complain =])

I can’t believe it but I am playing WoW again. I forgot how much fun it is!! It makes Bryan really happy that I am playing again, he loves the fact that I enjoy videogames and I enjoy just sitting next to him and hanging out. Say what you want about videogames but they are a ton of fun and a great way to bond with people. I really enjoy nerding out for a few hours.


/happy dances I am sooooooooooooooo excited for Christmas!!!!! I can’t wait to go home, decorate the tree, listen to Christmas music and bake cookies. Break is going to be super chill and fun and it wraps up nicely with my 21st birthday. My life may not be the most exciting or elaborate and I am not have a never ending list of friends and acquaintances but I am truly happy with how my life is going and the people in my life. I feel confident that I will end up quite happily where I want to be.

"Well the weather outside is frightful but the fire is so delightful and sense there's no place to go let it snow let it snow let it snow. when we finally kiss goodnight how i hate going out in the storm, but if you really hold me tight all the way home I'll be warm!"

I caved and listened to some "Christmas" music before Thanksgiving. I have been trying to stick to stuff that is more holiday season and doesn't mention Christmas until face stuffing day has passed

I am so excited for Thanksgiving break and then winter/Christmas break after that. I love the holiday season! I love being with friends and family, I love cooking and listening to holiday music. I love picking out special presents for people. There will be a ton of my mom's family up for Thanksgiving and then Josh and the three kids, Joey, and Sara and Andy will be up right after Christmas!! It will be so great!

Break always holds a special weekend when Bryan's family will be out of town and he is unable to go because of his lung so he is staying home and I am going to stay with him for a few days. He loves to tell me how excited he is to have me over and to just get to spend time with me. It gives me the warm holiday fuzzies ^^

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I Don't Post Much...

Bread is baking so my apartment currently smells amazing! (And yes, I do realize it is 11:35 the night before school starts =P). I have spent the last 4 days socializing with my co-workers for "training" and basically getting back in to the swing of life here in Bellingham. I am so happy to be back at work and interacting with a ton of new staff that will make this year super fun in the AS/VU.

Classes actually start tomorrow and I am ready to get my brain back in action! No more of this summertime slacking. Despite how much I love this school life I now live for the weekends (again). I found a new boy who is amazingly wonderful but of course he doesn't live around here and of course he is from the valley. You CAN'T escape the valley! But this time I really don't mind. Two more full days of new experiences and hanging out with friends before an awesome weekend with the boy. As cheesy as it sounds life is great right now! It will be even better when my other roomie moves in so I can live with my two best friends. I am so happy I am almost annoying myself =P

Last night was amazing. I went to a potluck that some people on the Western forums decided to put on so the people who post and/or stalk the forums the most could all meet up and chill. I was super nervous to go because I am not always such a fan of meeting new people because I get very shy and I am unable to act like myself. But this time I forced myself to go and talk and socialize and not worry about what others may think but to just let myself be me. And yes, it worked very very well. Those were my people! Geeky and nerdy to the extreme yet still very socially aware and hilarious! I found that I will befriend the types of guys (and girls) I enjoy spending time with if I let the nerd out and talk about video games and the rules of the internet. In the end I was actually glad I went alone. I feel it is something that I needed to do so I wouldn't use any of my friends as a crutch. If they had come along I most likely would not have talked as much and not had any of the same experiences, and boy were some of those experience one for Rachel's record books. I went places and did things out of my normal comfort zone but I have absolutely no regrets about any of it because it was way too much fun and hell, you only live once! Overall it was a great experience I finally feel like I have a bit more confidence that I have been lacking all year to talk with people and I met some awesome people who I hope I am actually able to become friends with in the future.

Spring has Sprung

Today was very wonderful! Instead of going on our "run" as we had planned my dear friend and I decided to go on a hike in the sunshine. It was so wonderful to get outside in the woods again. The forest was incredibly refreshing and we enjoyed a lovely little lunch on the shores of Fragrance Lake. On the way back down the trail we took the offshoot path to a lookout over Bellingham and Sammish Bays. It was stunning. We just sat their in silence for a while taking in the views. The best part for me is that it was just warm enough up there to get the warm pine and plant scents which are some of my favorites and bring me back to so many lovely memories. I absolutely cannot wait for summer to get here!

Currently I am craving a new journal. I do not need one seeing as how I do not use the ones I have. But I want one none-the-less to fuel my journal and pen addictions =P Perhaps next weekends expedition home will be fruitful and yield a journal. Speaking of home I am surprised at how much a seem to be going home this quarter. I have not gone home so regularly in a while. But I am missing more than normal (blame spring and memories associated with it) some awesome people back in the valley and in weird ways I am missing the valley itself. Sometimes Bellingham still does not feel like home so much as just a fun place to live. It is also luck for me that the weekends I go home are weekends before chem homework is do so I can have my dad help explain things to me while spending some time with him.

To people or not to people?

I have been fluctuating a lot being enjoying peoples company and absolutley hating being around them (and I mean people in general). I don't know how many times I must learn this lesson but it seems one I am doomed to repeat until the end of time. Someday I will learn that it is really best just to keep my mouth shut and keep my hands to myself. Maybe it is just my introverted self saying this but it seems better to just stay slightly aloof from people. Or maybe it is just the part of me that once I have decided I like you and I am going to be close to you I give it my all and I am always hurt when people don't care for me as much. So then I retreat into my shell to be aloof to people until someone comes along and the cycle repeats itself. I am pretty sure this sounds rather emo but that is not what I am going for. I am just making some observations.

I love being a brain ninja. I freaking love it. I do have a talent for it which makes things so entertaining. It seems like such a cruel thing to take pride in but it couldn't make me happier. =)